The Crushing Guilt

Sorry for the absence in posting. We have been b-u-s-y!

Dad is doing well. He continues to make slow progress and is working hard in therapy.
His spirits have been a bit down lately- think he is going crazy from spending so much time inside and frustrated at how slow the recovery process is. But, we can definitely see improvements, even if they are slow coming.

Mom has also been doing well. Her blood pressure has been more stable and she is feeling well as she gets ready for her next chemotherapy cycle next Thursday.

This past week I attempted to return to work, and actually almost worked a full week this week. It has been so difficult to spend so much time away from mom and dad. I have been experiencing what my friend Sarah calls "the crushing guilt." Wondering if I am doing enough or letting them down. I am sure there will be more of those feelings as we navigate this road. How do you figure out what the correct balance is? I know I will never regret spending a second to help mom and dad. But, that being said, I have a life and job in Columbia that I can't just press "pause" for....ugh!

Thankfully, family and friends have been absolutely incredible-- from dropping off meals, visiting the hospital, calling to check in, to filling up mom's car with gas- we are grateful. Also so grateful for all of the calls, emails, texts, and facebook messages. Even if you haven't heard back from us, please know how much we appreciate your thoughts and prayers and don't take them for granted.

If you have time, I'd also ask you to lift up a few folks who are also struggling with cancer, I am going to list first names only, please pray for God's peace and healing:

Dot
Jason's Dad (will find out name this week-Jason is one of mom's nurses)
Luke
Moses and
Linda

I will update more frequently. Thanks for checking in.